and what if im ..

i went to restock my lense yesterday ,
and the optician initiated to do an eye check-up for me ,
so green light was given by me , and ..
the results werent very pleasant to me .

optician : from the results of your right eye , i can see that youre depending on lenses for almost 12hours / day uh ?
me : er .. yeap .
optician : youve got to stop using lenses for a moment of time .. your right eye cornea's wearing out .
me : HUH ?! what the hell . and will i go blind or something ?!
optician : i cant assure you or something . so my advice to you is to stop for at least 3months .

a tragedy isnit ? ): he said , given this current situation im in now ,
even if i were to cut down on the number of hours each day , it wouldnt be much help either .
speedy recovery's to stop wearing lenses for 3months ..
which is = 90days = 2160hours = 129600minutes = 7776000 seconds .
and if .. im gonna carry stubborn with me which is to continue wear lenses ,
refuse to heed his advice .. i might go blind any time , any day , any where ..
okay , im in a very deplorable , woebegone , depressed , melancholia and downhearted state of mind now !
ANGEL IS SAD , VERY VERY SAD , VERY VERY VERY SAD ! )':

" and what if my world aint this colorful anymore "