Sat-A-Day sss

Sometime back.. quite recent & overdue photos! Saturdaysss :)

No, not O K

Is it me being oversensitive or is it real that she could feel me, somewhat someway somehow? Or maybe..my emotions are all written on my face, that one look / glance at it, its easily being read-able for human beings uh?
If not.. why do I feel a sense of exceptionally closure towards her, when she go, "How're you feeling?" with a pat on the back of my head, sometime after lunch-break today?---Positively sense of close-bond, to be crystal clear exact.
I looked at her for a few seconds, wanting to delve more of clues by this simple sentence, as I didnt wanna give an incorrect answer.. but she stayed calm without having eyecontacts with me, instead she was looking at those printout documentary papers. I faked a few mouth of cough, assuming that she's concern about my sickness as Im really down with this unduly nasty flu these days, despite the fact that I was actually feeling better already.
Yet, a number of cells in me, tells me that, she aint asking about my health-concern issues, instead my heart-problems matter..
Hurm..probably I am paranoid and sensitive these days, hence I tend to read too much over this simplified line; 'How're you feeling?' ..yea, it could be.. ought to be.. must be..

On a second thought..she wouldnt have found out my bloglink url, hasnt she?
No No No..couldnt be.. Im turning bonkers. And I ought to be crazily insane to even think of it. Nonsense Angel, Nonsense!
Now go to bed, so that it'll stop you from invading your own mind on some non-logical and senseless issues!

Yet..the eye-contact that she gave me when we're going off just now.. asking me if I were to turn in early tonight, somewhat tells me that, she knows something more but doesnt wanna reveal out, maybe..not just yet.

" I very much wanted to reply, - No, not okay.. not a single feeling of feeling o-k "

Just.. Dont Feel So Good

Its half past one now, and Im all wide awake with my eyeballs blinking here and there, hence I've decided to pen them now..my thoughts since theres work later on, and no else where is available for to me go for an exit-pass entry even without a fee.

' Lets go on a vacation, Bi! Anywhere.. I just wanna get out off Singapore, leave here somedays to somewhere, just with you..only. '
' I wanna go on a cruise with you eh Bi! '
' Lets go visit all the restaurants in Dempsey, and have a taste of them! Remember to collect all their personal name-cards for memory! '
' Lets go and sit the Singapore Flyer when its our Half-Year Anniversary! '
' Lets go to Universal Studios, and play all the rides when they are all on available status k! '
' Lets go JB a day, just to eat seafood k! '
' I'll bring you to Marina Barrage one day to Star-Bathe with our naked eyes. '
' I'll get you the Hello-Kitty ring with all or any color you want, when they stock in the eggy-balls into the machine k! '
' Lets have picnic one day when we have our baby k (guinea pig) Bi! '
' Lets come back here (a place near Singapore Flyer outside Popeye facing Marina Bay Sands Sea) again. '
' Lets disturb Khidzer when he start interns in Cathay k! And we'll take free popcorns + movie passes from him :) ! '
' Lets go shopping and get our Couple-Watches k, Bi! '
' I'll go google and find a place where you wish to have your Outdoor Garden Birthday Dinner and bring you there k, Bi :) '
' I'll buy us a ring / another set of Couple-Wristlets, next time to make it up since I lose our couple-wrsitlets with you the other time in Iluma. '
' I'll bring you to the Sunset-Grills Buffalo Wings k Bi! Since I've already found out that place. '
' We'll get the same Iphone Cover k Bi :) '
' I'll drive you out for supper in future la k, when my Mom's out of Singapore :) '
' Lets go Clubbing one day k, just Me and You, the two of Us, and Im sure it'll be fun still cause theres you, with me.. ' You said to me..
See all these? All these are pacts being said by you and some by me.. Pacts made between you and me. I haven forgotten them yet. Have you? Or worse still..youre doing it or have already done it with someone else..already?

I dont know what has gotten up into me.. I miss you terribly much these days.. mind filled with thoughts of you. To be specifically clearly exact, overflooded with images of you and me. Goddamnit. Its been extensively outstretched since I last felt this way. Its like Im suffering from some disease thats working-up again, this sickness relapsing all over me, and theres nothing much I can actually do about it. URGH. ANGEL ANGEL!!!
I shocked some of my BabyGirls Chicas, when they found out that, Im still missing him at this time now, after monthsss. Sigh. Yes, No Doubt Me Too am astonish with my own weird-liked feelings, thats really likely to turn out being unlikable, for the time-being.
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Anyway..
Dear Readers, pardon me over this emo post, despite not doing a real decent update after god knows when was it. Discharge me for this once, and I'd give my word that even if such crestfallen entry were to be published again, it'll unlikely be this wordy, instead a strike-shoot simple update.

OhWell, I feel sooo much better now, in a way or another after spilling all these out. Though some are still being pack at a corner of my heart, and stored at some end of my brain. Whatsoever, at least I let off this elongated disclose, being held in me for days. Its all inhabiting around my gastric all the way up to my oesophagus till I feel like puking them all out at one go, booo~

Looking at my little old-school pinkish roundy, with leopard-printing surface, its 0230, which meant I ought to go to bed now. Even with or without a heavy-carrying mind.
Not gonna wish GoodNight, cause I know it wont be, as Im gonna have Kindergarden Kiddos Counting Numbersss hours of sleep, and report for work at a disgusting time of 0830 which is gonna drag on and last for a whole lot of 12< hours, I supposed?
Sigh, what a bad timing to input all these issues together whereby Im at a state of having this awfully instability mentality, with emotion swinging.

" its Missing-You time, for me like n o w? "

Hang On

OhHi!

I dont know what I want anymore. Im confused for what has took place, over that past few days.

" stop and stare, please dont move as its going; no else where"

Pause and Freeze; I Demand

Hello. Can I have the power of having a button to stop the clock ticking, so that time will stop moving, and the world's gonna stop revolving, just for me.
I'll switch it back to the normal-mode once I had enough sleep (which aint possible?).

I a m s o o o t i r e d.

" let me pause, shut my mind and hibernate for a-while.. "

Friends with Calm Waves

For the past weeks, things has been flowing pretty smoothly for me.. hurm, maybe I'd use the word exceptionally and extraordinary smoothly instead.
Work's been awesomely good, and Im glad that my relationship with E'Sis and CN are much much closer now <": So long as Im good with them, what other people thinks and have in their mind, doesnt matter to me anymore.
Cause seriously, I dont care. I cant and wont be able to please everyone, especially those people who doesnt really matter to me. As afterall, what affects me most, are people whom I think matters to me and create an impact in me! ^^
Well, moving on to- Relationship between my friends and Honeychicas's also on first-class condition terms. Just that I really cant manage to squeeze out time during weekdays to spend it physically with most of them, cause of our non-identical alien-liked schedule. But I'll make sure that after my Show's over whereby I've got more time like dontve to do OT this often, I'll make it up to them! Chicas, I miss all of you, every single one of you.. trust me! I mean ittt!
I miss those times, loitering to nowhere and simply just wasting time shopping and chatterboxing away!
Lastly, can you all believe that I really did stop partying for 2weeks?! Claps to me. *round of applause, bow x3 + Flick Hair to the back* :"D
But Im gonna activate it back, this week! Ahem.. See me there, Party Animals!

To summarize and conclude everything, I love my life now!

" when you need me, I'll leave.. and thats for sure "