Can you see my tearsss

Angel is freaking sadzxzzzz now . I just received a B O M B NEWS and it totally drag my mood down all the way to HELL ! ):
Can someone just kill me now ? So that everything will just end now , as I can no longer endure with this piece of shit Im undergoing now . Weak ? Yes , I am . And I bet even if youve got a strong character , youre feeling no way better than me , cause life in Charcoal's a killer .
Yes commit suicide myself did crossed my mind , but I dont want .. cause I dont wanna die with handcuffed on ):

Symtoms of Depression :
* You feel sad or cry a lot and it doesn’t go away.
* You feel guilty for no real reason; you feel like you’re no good; you’ve lost your confidence.
* Life seems meaningless or like nothing good is ever going to happen again.
* You have a negative attitude a lot of the time, or it seems like you have no feelings.
* You don’t feel like doing a lot of the things you used to like– like music, sports, being with friends, going out– and you want to be left alone most of the time.
* It’s hard to make up your mind. You forget lots of things, and it’s hard to concentrate.
* You get irritated often. Little things make you lose your temper; you overreact.
* Your sleep pattern changes; you start sleeping a lot more or you have trouble falling asleep at night. Or you wake up really early most mornings and can’t get back to sleep.
* Your eating habits change; you’ve lost your appetite or you eat a lot more.
* You feel restless and tired most of the time.
* You think about death, or feel like you’re dying, or have thoughts about committing suicide.

Out of 11 , I've hit 7 symtoms .. more than half ): Yes , it will be 11/11 pretty soon I think ? Thinking I've gone insane totally ? Yes , Im sharing the same sentiments too . This is how BAD and NEGATIVE my current situation is , and Im going through .
Nothing cheer me up at all , I suppose ? SIGH . I HATE CHARCOAL , IN FACT SHATEC TO BE EXACT !
F.U.C.K to that mother fucker who come up with this brilliant idea of 3months attachment ! Fancy slogging my ass off working without getting a single cent paid .
No one understands how I or maybe we DTM708A is going through now ): No one ..

Now all I want and hope for is that , time please fly fast so , Saturday will knock on me . I just wanna party my ass out and sleep to death aftermath . Cause after party on Saturday , will be Sunday and soon .. it will be Monday again .. and everything will be back to sqaure one . WORK MY ASS OFF !
KISS MY ASS NOW , MOTHER PUSSY GODDAMN ASSHOLE !

" for whatsoever reason , I dont freaking care at all "

Bye F U N

Overdue Photos for Wednesday Disastrous Ladies' Night .

Okay , Sunday's here .. almost ending in fact , looking at the time now 2355 .
sigh sigh BIG BIG SIGH ! With the thought of waking up at such time that I usually sleep these days , which is around .. crack of dawn , really dreads me of going work . No , should be attachment .. as in Free Labour in actual fact . Work my ass off without getting paid ): Tell me how pathetic I am . Very ? Yes , I know . But what to do ? Its one of my modules and I've got to complete it for the sake of getting my Cert .
So , no further complaints Angel ! 3months fly k ! .. er I suppose so uh ? /:
Menses + Waking up soooo damn early + Work and not getting paid = GODDAMN THIS SHIT CRAP ASS !
' youve got to be kidding me uh ? ' ..

" gonna take you down "

Live and Gone

So I got my ass stuck home for this whole day ! Yes , this whole Saturday ! Damnit , I bet you cant be any more unlucky than me , with the fact that everything was planned nicely --> Angel's gonna have one last p a r t y today before kicking herself into Charcoal on Monday , dance like theres no tomorrow and booze all night long !
But who knows , this afternoon I woke up with pain .. slight pain to be exact . Hoping that its not menses' cramp that Im suffering .. oh well , goddamn this crap , it is menses ! What a pussy day with this red being the first holyshit thing to greet me .
And yes , I wanted to go on with the plan and party despite the fact that Im consistently losing blood underneath . Cause who the fuck cares anyway , even I dont wanna care as all I want is to dance and forget about that current pussy pain ! .. Unfortunately heaven aint on my side /: slight pain and cramp turn into some monster pain and the cramp was unbearable as time passed by . Carrying crushed feelings , looking at the clock ticking non-stop , ' its party time Angel ' .. sigh , yes its almost .. nearly to Party-Time .
' too bad ' is all I can say for myself under this kinda kicking ass situation .
Tomorrow's my last day , which is also Sunday = Family Day = Shopping without the need of me paying ! Yayness ! Okay , retail therapy for me tomorrow !

Next Saturday is a die die must party for me ! (: Double making up for Wednesday disastrous Ladies' Night and today's goddamn Red day !

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You were the one Im eyeing , Im missing , Im talking about ..
We used to have everything right infront of us , this picture of you and me ,
letting us see so clearly of what we are and who we are .
Youre the one whom I'll write l o v e , this four letters word on .
Yet youre always telling me that hurt and lost is what I've given you for long .

" crushing me up with black and blue "

Ladies' Date

Town with both my Double T's today . Supposed to get our freaking uniform for Charcoal , but some pussy problems cropped up in the end /: Now we've got to wait till this coming Monday .. WHAT THE F U C K yes !
So .. when plan fail on purchasing uniform , and our ass is in town .. the three of us SHOP , EAT , SHOP , EAT , SHOP , EAT .. non-stop ! hahaha .
What to do ?! Gotta enjoy ourselves as much as possible , cause Monday is approaching and we will be officially LOCKED in Charcoal ): no life totally .. worse than school jail hours !
' hands hold onto shoulders + head jerking non-stop like idiot ' = Joke of the day ! hahaha . You know I know we know why ! heeheezzxzxzxzxzxz !

Okay , clubbing later I suppose ?! Well , most prolly I guess !
JUST DANCE , EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OKAYYYYY !

" Im holding on by letting go of you "

What a Night

Partying last night was disastrous totally . Club hopped from ; Arena , Attica then back to Phuture . Yes , Phuture was the place I wanna get my ass stuck there partying all night long , but .. last night the crowd S U C K totally . Freaking pussy packed to the extent that there were a total of 5bouncers controlling the crowd freakos .
Im so disappointed ! ): wanted to have like one last party before I get my ass stuck back to Charcoal , and it turned out to be nothing but S U C K MY GODDAMN CRAP HOLE !

Last night already spelled s.h.i.t , something worse knocked onto me /:
The fact that the club is already so packed , I can actually bumped into a friend of yours .. this close friend of yours somemore .
Okay D I E .. Im all prepared cause I can forsee that theres another upcoming fight we're gonna have soon , pretty much soon indeed .
So tell me how freaking unlucky I am last night ):

Anyway photos will be up soon after I got them from Minyi .
.. Partying this Saturday as a make-up , should I or should I not ?!

" it will still be you no matter what "

Island Girls

Monday : Miracle happened that day , cause Angel's only late for about 15minutes ?! hahaha . Maybe because the meeting destination is super near my place , cause .. its only like .. one freaking bus-stop away ? hahaha !
So I met Minyi and we hit Sentosa ; Palawan Beach to tanned ourselves , unfortunately the attempt of baking ourselves under the sun failed officially . I fancy applied SPF50+ before getting my ass out of the house afraid that I'll be over-baked , yet back to actual fact over at Sentosa theres no sign of sun at all /: hahaha ! Eh .. maybe its one good thing for me uh , cause I dont intend to get myself too tanned too , so not tanned is also one good choice afterall ! (:

" so come hold me tight and never let go "