aint feeling any better

tell me how unlucky am i , to fall ill at this time ! sucha nice flow of days down .. Friday = Holiday , then followed by weekends !
which means i can get my ass to club on Thursday then rest for the following of three days or club on Friday whereby i've had plenty of rest and loooong hours of beauty sleep on Thursday night !
trust that those freaking annoying crap ass germs and bacteria actually knock on me at such timing ! ):
now im leading such good life ( roll eyes ) , have no other choice , but to get my ass stuck home for days , instead of enjoying my weekends to the fullest /: tell me how awesome is this ..
anyway Gowri's damn funny just now .. she text me with something so random .
Gowri : ' Oh my god Angel , you should see this guy in the train now . He's damn handsome and he has got BRACES ! '
LOL . trust that she actually sent me this , out of a sudden . but she's thoughtful isnit ? the fact that she actually remember that i fancy guys with braces (:
theyre just soooooooo adorable !

" i hate this part right now "

i need a holiday

Friday : fatigue crawl over me and i gave school a missed that day . wasnt on purpose i swear .. i did on my alarm , but i suppose that day my ears aint functioning . hahaha !
anyway , i think heaven's on my side ! cause out of four lessons , only two lecturers came , and only one of them teach ! hohoho !
supposed to end class at 1630pm , they ended at 1200pm . therefore met mates in town for fingers-counting hours of shopping !
rushed home to doll myself and got my ass out , getting all ready to P A R T Y !
hit Rebel with my three honey girls ; Christelle , Gerlyn and Shanice ! well , Rebel wasnt really as fun as what i thought it was ! Phuture's still the best , i think !
anyway , it was a pity that PX hun cannot join us that day /: and Ling too ! ): i misssssss clubbing with you la Tina Teh Susu !


Saturday : BAD DAY ! GODDAMNIT ! you know i know we know why !
mira's house to watch Greece for Theme Party , Bedok Simpang Spicez , East Coast to chill and celebrate Joseph's birthday !
the string of bad things that happened to me , him and her shall not be mentioned here , cause it aint good to be remind of something bad !
always look on the bright side of life ! (: eh .. yea , i think i can .. with the fact that , tomorrow im having TR and piles of project looking at me .. screaming for my name !
( roll eyes ) Shatec's a real spoiler for making me look like some loser /: hahaha !

" my lips like sugar "

i need a break

this week kinda fly in a wink of an eye i think .. its already Wednesday and im still kinda living in denial having the mindset that it was Tuesday still ..

anyway , Shanice that super adorable girl damn funny !
Shanice : oh my god ! i miss you !
Me : me too ! im going club this Friday ! wanna join ?!
Shanice : yes yes ! i steady pompeepee !
LOL . and as simple as that , she's coming clubbing with me this Friday ! hahaha .
this little 16year old clubber girl will definately get sick of party before she's even legal ! oh well , who cares anyway ! we all need a break from this hectic school life , if not i suppose all of us will soon turn into potential zombie-geeks !
i soooo wanna skip Thursday and let Friday knock on me just like that !
' CPX HUN ! I DEMAND YOU TO COME ON FRIDAY !!! ' hahaha .

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i cant believe this time round we fall out for real over this fight .. this real silly fight .
how can we even quarrel over such childish issue till this serious , i ponder .
ahh , forget it ! i hate to think of you , so often !
hate to see me going party ? too bad , im still gonna get my ass there . you are nobody yet , to control me .
since you like to do things in your way , i dont see why cant i do things in my way then .

" im a heartbreaker "

come party with me

Town with Gerlyn , Tasha , Eugene and Khidzer yesterday and we caught the movie ; Knowing . all of us think that the movie was worth the price , except for Gerlyn . LOL .
that girl's only into those , fairytale happily-ever-after and comedy shows . so obviously , she dint enjoy the show at all . therefore , i'll recommend peeps to watch it , unless youre one of those who's also catergorised under ' Gerlyn's catergory ' . hahaha .
oh ya ! i bumped into Px hun and her friends at cine . she's playing L4D . LOL .

after the show , it was around 1am plus , the perfect time to P A R T Y !
while slacking outside Cathay , theyre all brainstorming where to get our ass to .
Me : LETS GO CLUBBING ! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEE ! CLUB CLUB CLUB !
( this sentence's repeated a whole lot of countless timessssss within less than 5minutes )
Gerlyn : Angel , you better stop it , before i slap you .
Me : DONT CARE DONT CARE ! CLUB CLUB CLUB !
Khidzer : i switch on music then you dance here k ! (:
Me : NOOOOOOOOOOOO ! I WANT REAL CLUB ! CLUB CLUB CLUB !
Them : okay , so you tell us , which club you wanna go ?
Me : eh .. its impossible to get into Phuture now .. so .. Rebel ?! Arena ?!
Eugene : how about Past ?! ( inside joke ) LOL .
Khidzer & Tasha : Past ?! what the fuck is that ?
Eugene : only Angel and Gerlyn know ! its the Best Club ever ! hahaha !

In the end , we really got our ass to boat quay . all ready to P A R T Y !
unfortunately , instead of going in the club and hit the dancefloor , we're all standing OUTSIDE the club ..
time-checked at that time was around 0230am . and Khidzer says he dont mind paying , if the club close at around 0500 to 0600am , cause he thinks that paying 30bucks to get in there and enjoy less than one and a half hour or less , is totally not worth it .
hence , we all got our ass there for nothing .. ):
argh ! bad day indeed , for yesterday ! our bad afterall , for not planning everything right .
therefore everything was ruined .. badly ruined .
oh well , whatsoever that has happened has already happened and its over now !
im soooo looking forward to Friday ! P A R T Y (:
yes yes , right after school i'll rush home and change then im all ready to club !
soooo gonna party all night long , booze till i drop dead and dance like theres no tomorrow !

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youre back in my life AGAIN .. ( roll eyes )
happy / sad ? i dont know .. im confused with my current feelings now .
whatsoever it is , im feeling neither shocked nor surprised , with the fact that you gave a knock back , on the door of my life this time .. again .
only thing im able to conclude is , i just hate myself for never be able to treat you like how i always plan to ..
maybe because , cold-shoulders and you will never meet up as one pair in my dictionary .
with you in my life , i really feel like a loser .. indeed pretty much a loser .
and mira says : ' you and him are too alike , and the only difference is the only thing that keeps you two apart . '

" i demand a twist in this story of mine "

Take my pain away

Blame it on the R E D .. im having one bad day , today ..
class ends early today , so mates and i make a trip down to town and get our project research done . this project that we're currently working on , is one gigantic bomb .. ):
we've got soooo much things to do , yet so little time left for us to complete everything .

holy shit ! this project will be eating Three Super Important ' S ' in my life ..
First ' S ' - Sleeping time ! goddamnit .. time spend with Siro will be intensively chop down !
Second ' S ' - Shopping time ! okay , there goes my shopping again .. ( roll eyes ) /: gotta bid a temporary goodbye to those lovely stuffs for a moment of time .
Third ' S ' - Social life ! project = no time = no partying ! ): this is hell shit ridiculous , like totally !
right , i think its better if i can stop chanting over this thing , because each time i say it , my mood and energy level will decrease by 100000000% !

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tell me what and why is it so hard to forget about this ?!
it has been so long and im still so stuck , in here , not moving on .
sometimes i tried to hide all these feelings inside and portray the other side ,
but when i turn around , your face is something i dont think i'll be able to hide any further away from my sight .
maybe because .. you seem to be the one i've been looking for , after so long ..
( a combination of everything , i've always longed for ; so near to my line of perfection )

Dear Mates , dont remind me anymore .. because im not over it .. just too little not over with him yet .
maybe not now .. but give me time . just a little more time , and im sure i'll be able to get over and so done with this freaking annoying dumb shit crappy idiotic loser feeling !

this song , im currently so addicted to , seriously describes my present feelings now .
singing all my feelings out , extremely true yet so blue ..

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I care
And suppose that spent all my nights running scared
And suppose
That I was never there

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Suppose we were happy
Suppose it was true
And suppose there were cold nights
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you

My eyes I'm screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Slow way down
This break down's eating me alive
And I'm tired
This fight is fighting to survive

Tell me a secret (I want it)
Tell me a story (I need it)
I'll listen intensively
I'll stay awake all night
All of me is a whisper (So don't leave)
There's nothing left in me (Please help me)
Not even my body is strong enough to fight (Let's make this right)
Please help me make this right

Suppose that I was wrong
Suppose you were here
And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears
And suppose this fight just disappeared

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too
But I'd rather be here with you

" im losing all my drive , with everything about you "

i'll never understand y o u

was talking to Cleon on msn just now .. about a very sucky topic ; L O V E .
dont know why .. but chatting with him about this fucked up thing makes me feel so .. cramped .
something's wrong with me , i guess ? it has been quite some time since i last felt this way .. a very terrible demoralizing feeling hidden somewhere deep down in me .

i need some space for me to pour everything out ..
i need someone to hear me ..
and i need something for me to lean on ..

' come and go ' this is what youre best at .
i dont know why , but whenever the mission of erasing you out of my mind is almost completed , you'll give a knock back in my life again . ( ROLL EYES ! ) not once , but uncountable times ..
your name , your face , your voice , your everything .. isnit something new to my brain and heart anymore ..

youre one nutshell thats hard to crack ,
one sudoku game that i'll never be able to figure out ,
one maze that i'll never find the correct way out ..
youre too hard for me to understand .. without any doubts in it .

someone has to put that fullstop to this , and it will be me .
from now on , you'll be totally out of the picture .
i dint want this to happen too , but your actions force me to ..
you know i wont if you dont , .. and still you dint met up to it with me .
so i guess we're both living in two different world ..
( we're better off this way .. )
and i supposed , all we had to do now , is nothing but bidding goodbye .
cause everything about you seems to be a lie .. a guiltless twisted lie .

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i need a break from school work , to booze and p a r t y all night long and forget all those unnecessary things !

" either way , i cant breathe "

Thats how i know you

goddamnit . i think im gonna fall sick in no time .. ):
i can feel that those freaking bacteria and germs are running towards me .. S I G H !
anyway , tomorrow's Monday already , and i've got to get my ass back to school jail reluctantly ..
sad life .. oh nonono , should be N O life ! hahaha .

so .. yesterday i hit Phuture with Peixian , Serene , Sharnice , Cleon and Clark .
well , dint really enjoy myself , cause of the crowd .. damnit .

by the way ! Peixian launched her new collection already ! check it out k !
www.onepointfive.blogspot.com

" you got me attracted to you "

Happy Birthday Mr Loo

yay ! this week of school's finally o v e r !
super ultra duber glad that tomorrow's a public holiday . somemore its a Friday ! which means , i've got three straight days of not meeting school jail ! tell me , how great and awesome this is ! (:

anyway , Happy 19th Birthday to Loo Shi Jun Eugene !


because im a dead deep sleeper , and this is what they do to me , when im in my dreamland , during class break .
LOL . how awesome are they , my friends ?! and they all think that i'll die one fine day , in sleep without me knowing it myself , even when theres an earthquake happening in Singapore . hahaha ! super exaggerating , yes ?!
im not that D E A D like how they described me sleeping ,
just that .. maybe till the extent of being in the state of coma ? hahaha !

" because theres you , every day's something new "