Take my pain away

Blame it on the R E D .. im having one bad day , today ..
class ends early today , so mates and i make a trip down to town and get our project research done . this project that we're currently working on , is one gigantic bomb .. ):
we've got soooo much things to do , yet so little time left for us to complete everything .

holy shit ! this project will be eating Three Super Important ' S ' in my life ..
First ' S ' - Sleeping time ! goddamnit .. time spend with Siro will be intensively chop down !
Second ' S ' - Shopping time ! okay , there goes my shopping again .. ( roll eyes ) /: gotta bid a temporary goodbye to those lovely stuffs for a moment of time .
Third ' S ' - Social life ! project = no time = no partying ! ): this is hell shit ridiculous , like totally !
right , i think its better if i can stop chanting over this thing , because each time i say it , my mood and energy level will decrease by 100000000% !

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tell me what and why is it so hard to forget about this ?!
it has been so long and im still so stuck , in here , not moving on .
sometimes i tried to hide all these feelings inside and portray the other side ,
but when i turn around , your face is something i dont think i'll be able to hide any further away from my sight .
maybe because .. you seem to be the one i've been looking for , after so long ..
( a combination of everything , i've always longed for ; so near to my line of perfection )

Dear Mates , dont remind me anymore .. because im not over it .. just too little not over with him yet .
maybe not now .. but give me time . just a little more time , and im sure i'll be able to get over and so done with this freaking annoying dumb shit crappy idiotic loser feeling !

this song , im currently so addicted to , seriously describes my present feelings now .
singing all my feelings out , extremely true yet so blue ..

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I care
And suppose that spent all my nights running scared
And suppose
That I was never there

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Suppose we were happy
Suppose it was true
And suppose there were cold nights
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you

My eyes I'm screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too

Slow way down
This break down's eating me alive
And I'm tired
This fight is fighting to survive

Tell me a secret (I want it)
Tell me a story (I need it)
I'll listen intensively
I'll stay awake all night
All of me is a whisper (So don't leave)
There's nothing left in me (Please help me)
Not even my body is strong enough to fight (Let's make this right)
Please help me make this right

Suppose that I was wrong
Suppose you were here
And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears
And suppose this fight just disappeared

And my eyes are screaming for a sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you
So I guess I'll be lonely too
But I'd rather be here with you

" im losing all my drive , with everything about you "