Can you see my tearsss

Angel is freaking sadzxzzzz now . I just received a B O M B NEWS and it totally drag my mood down all the way to HELL ! ):
Can someone just kill me now ? So that everything will just end now , as I can no longer endure with this piece of shit Im undergoing now . Weak ? Yes , I am . And I bet even if youve got a strong character , youre feeling no way better than me , cause life in Charcoal's a killer .
Yes commit suicide myself did crossed my mind , but I dont want .. cause I dont wanna die with handcuffed on ):

Symtoms of Depression :
* You feel sad or cry a lot and it doesn’t go away.
* You feel guilty for no real reason; you feel like you’re no good; you’ve lost your confidence.
* Life seems meaningless or like nothing good is ever going to happen again.
* You have a negative attitude a lot of the time, or it seems like you have no feelings.
* You don’t feel like doing a lot of the things you used to like– like music, sports, being with friends, going out– and you want to be left alone most of the time.
* It’s hard to make up your mind. You forget lots of things, and it’s hard to concentrate.
* You get irritated often. Little things make you lose your temper; you overreact.
* Your sleep pattern changes; you start sleeping a lot more or you have trouble falling asleep at night. Or you wake up really early most mornings and can’t get back to sleep.
* Your eating habits change; you’ve lost your appetite or you eat a lot more.
* You feel restless and tired most of the time.
* You think about death, or feel like you’re dying, or have thoughts about committing suicide.

Out of 11 , I've hit 7 symtoms .. more than half ): Yes , it will be 11/11 pretty soon I think ? Thinking I've gone insane totally ? Yes , Im sharing the same sentiments too . This is how BAD and NEGATIVE my current situation is , and Im going through .
Nothing cheer me up at all , I suppose ? SIGH . I HATE CHARCOAL , IN FACT SHATEC TO BE EXACT !
F.U.C.K to that mother fucker who come up with this brilliant idea of 3months attachment ! Fancy slogging my ass off working without getting a single cent paid .
No one understands how I or maybe we DTM708A is going through now ): No one ..

Now all I want and hope for is that , time please fly fast so , Saturday will knock on me . I just wanna party my ass out and sleep to death aftermath . Cause after party on Saturday , will be Sunday and soon .. it will be Monday again .. and everything will be back to sqaure one . WORK MY ASS OFF !
KISS MY ASS NOW , MOTHER PUSSY GODDAMN ASSHOLE !

" for whatsoever reason , I dont freaking care at all "