Evil and Me

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anyway , these days i've pondering if i really wanna shipped the set of voodoo dolls ,
i've always longed for . many things crossed my mind that keeps me
having a distance away from these black spell-ed dolls .
im one who'll actually vent all my anger when my temper's boiling hot .
and during this period of time , i'll tend to act and do things without using my brain .
but aftermath , i'll do self-reflection , yet sometimes ..
its all too late to make any amendments and this is when regret knocks on me .
i dont deny the fact that im a soft-hearted person ,
i'll forgive but not forget . not to the extent of holding on grudges , but sometimes ..
the impact's too deep that , it'll just stay there no matter what the other party try to make it up to you and so .
and because of this .. im afraid i'll mis-used those black spell-ed dolls .
not that im afraid there'll be karma , cause i already know there will be ,
when i officially declared that , ' Angel wants to be a Witch ' .
and so , karma is something i cant run away from . the thing is ..
im afraid i might mis-used those dolls that , those karmas that im subjected to ,
makes me feel that its ' unfair ' , cause i dint meant to hurt ' these people ' ,
at the moment of time whereby im super duber infuriated .
SIGH ! my thoughts are contradicting now .. and i really dont know what i want !

people who have positive thoughts on me will think , im an Angel .
people who have negative thoughts on me will think , im a Witch .
to me , im a combination of these two .
cause i'll be an Angel to people i like , and a Witch to people i loathe .
and this term is a new term whereby i added something new into my life , the word ' HATE ' .
i dare say 18years in my life , i've never hate someone before .
like i've said , loathe yes but not to the extent of hatred . cause i forgive , yet not forget .
now i can finally understand , how my friends feel whenever they grumble to me about someone they hate .
Hate's really one strong word , at least to me , i feel it this way .
cause im experiencing it now ! its really agonizing to see someone you hate :/
why i hate the other party so much ? good question !
cause the other party's actions / words / gestures is the explanation to it .
and i think .. if i really got my voodoo dolls ..
Exorcist Wanga will be save for this particular person (:
just for your information : Exorcist Wanga's a black spell-ed doll ,
whereby you wanna get rid of this person , and EXORCISE them FOREVER (:

IM SCARY ? well , basically everyone has their evil side , isnit ?
so if you wanna hate me , by all means . but dont you dare provoke me , cause i dont bite ..
i'll only voodoo you someday when i feel like ,
secretly in the night , all by myself with the doll .. and you'll not know ..
not till when youre suffering from the pain ..

if youre reading this , and theres a chill down your spine ..
maybe .. maybe .. your name is the one thats gonna be PIN-NED on ..
EXORCIST WANGA (:

" bid goodbye before its all too late "