I know it myself, its like so crystal clear in my mind that I wanna celebrate with A*.
B*, C* and D* initiated and asked, still.. I just wanna celebrate it with A*.
Sigh, Sigh, Sigh.. BIG BIG SIGH!
Dearest Fairy GodMom, its pretty obvious that this year, my wish's different from any other previous ones.. er ever since Primary3.
Hurm.. please grant my wish this year, and Im sorry to be this greedy to voice it out to you now instead of the actual day itself, cause.. Im afraid time's running out, as this thing will be too late to be wish-ed on the day my 19th birthday fell.
'Hello Imma DumbBell, waiting for this One Miracle to drop by me now..' --- My Birthday Wish.
Oh one more thing, Hi Body. Stop being so weak, seriously.
I realised this, if I were to go out any days except Friday after work, I really literally cant drag my ass off the bed, the next morning. Today's a Super Good example, I overslept and took MC instead. Though for the past 2weeks, I've been going out after work too, but today's really one gone case day. -_____________________________-
Im on the line of hesitating, thinking of if I should voice out about my Chronic Sleeping Disord to them. But thing is.. Im afraid that they might think Im cracking a hella bomb joke or something.
Then again.. Yes, I can ask my Doctor to print the Cert as Verification about my illness, but.. I dont want them to have this mentality like, 'OH, so now what? Trying to tell us that you could be late like uhuh Every-Single-Morning kinda thing?'
HolyCrap man seriously.. Im so confused now.. Hurrr >":
I must kick this disease off me.. but how?!?!?! /":
Cause I know if I dont get rid of this stupid illness, I'll be facing this hassle issue down the pathway when Im really working, in future, like AGAIN?! (roll eyeballs)
According to the Doctor, the only way that this illness is gonna fuck off would be, me being a GoodGirl taking pills (something I hate it ttm, sooo cumbersome and excess medicine=harmful instead of being helpful), which means relying on it till one fine day which God Knows when is it gonna be.. or either that, lead a Healthy Lifestyle that one day; (which again, I dont effing know when is it gonna be?!) my BodyClock switches back to normal, and my neurons are immune to it, so my brain will work and accommodate fairly well with body cells.
Like WhatTheFuck right?! Are both of these even choices? @.@
Why on earth am I so unlucky to contract these kinda disease whereby 90% of the Teenagers are leading an abnormal; Nocturnal lifestyle?
Ah, whatsoever it is, I think Im still gonna go out after work; but not every single day la. Like seriously, working's already enough of being no life, dont expect me to turn into someone who's life's goes like this; after work=home, except for Fridays and Saturdays=OutingDay?
NO way am I gonna let this happen! How can I turn into sucha No-Life-Soul? N O, NO!
CHU♥ Xo A
" gotta whisper cause I cant be too loud "
